A drama-free family life. A job that doesn't feel like a job and also pays good bucks.A funny, smart and loyal boyfriend who I'm crazy about. Bonus points if he is hot. To see the world but still feel deeply rooted at home. To eat mouth-watering dishes but never get fat. To be rich naturally, but not one of those stuck-up rich brats. Of course we would want to give back. We are dream of doing it all and we believe we can have it all. This is the destiny of our generation and anyone who doubts that we can make this happen is just really old.
Well, at least that is what we think until we start to doubt it ourselves too.
We just don't get why it is hard and takes so long for our dreams to come true. We know it was not going to be easy, but we did not know it would be this hard. We are aware that we whine a lot. In our blogs, in Twitter, in our Facebook status. We know its irritating. But we can't help it, we were promised that the only thing that can stop us from making our dreams come true is us. Yet here we are disheartened because there are some things that we just cannot control like laws of physics, time, our government, our parents. There is a lot of things we want to do but we cannot be in two places at the same time and we always feel like we are running out of time. Every day our ideals are challenged, every day there is a proof that what we have known as truth is actually grey at best. We are confused most of the time. We try so hard to keep on focusing on our goal but sometimes that goal is just so blinding that we have to look away. Then sometimes we forget to look back.
We were just kids when the instant noodles become integrated into the Filipino's dinner table. We grew up thinking that you can have a delicious comfort food in just three minutes. Patience is perhaps not one of our virtues. We always think that perhaps there is a faster way to do things so when reality proves us wrong, we have hard time accepting it. It's just hard to think that there is anything impossible at this day and age. Most especially, its unthinkable for our dreams not to be possible.
So what do we do when it gets hard? We either take a break then go for it stronger or give-up on it before it gives up on us.
So much for having-it-all, instead we put our life on hold and enter a quarter-life crisis.
During this time the world is very scary for us. We have seen a lot, we have read a lot so we know that a lot of fucked-up things can happen. Worse, we do not have a restart button just like the video games we grow up with. We feel trapped. There seems to be nowhere we can go and if ever there is, we do not feel that we are good enough for it, that we are good enough for anything. Totally playing the failure part.
Fortunately this crisis ends. Even though it does not have a uniform timeline some got out of in a month others take years, the important thing is that it ends.
Once we got out of that dark hole, that's when we realize the true meaning of having it all. So believe again, but this time we are packing up some patience that just enjoy the ride.
