I really can't believe what is happening in my life.. I mean, c'mon!

I fell down the stairs, which is very ironic since the last post is a song called "Defying Gravity."


This sucks and it hurts like hell too. On the bright side, I don't have any broken limbs. I guess it's good that I fell on a sitting down position, I can still walk and altough I have cuts on my back, it seems fine; hopefully my x-ray results would collaborate my assumptions. Except for the two big bruises on my right butt cheek, there are no obvious indication my body bounced of the stairs five times. Five times.

My thought process went like this:
I'm falling down the stairs.
I have to hold on the rail, I can't hold on the rail!
My back! Ouch.
This must look horrible to Rozza.(She was behind me)
When I reached the last step and realized I'm still concious and can feel my legs, I figured I'm ok and stood up. I dont think I feel bad enough to rushed to the E.R., plus going to th hospital at 4am would just amp the drama and I'm not even bleeding.

When I saw my bruises and cuts , that's when I felt how much it hurts. So this is how it feels to be beat up. I thought about the battered women. I would never understand how they could stand and hide the abuse they get. I also thought about basketball players and the numerous times I have seen then fell bad on the floor. I guess there is such a thing as a right and wrong way to fall. I convinced myself I fell the right way since my body was in a natural position, it's like I slid down a slide except ofcourse its a flight of stairs and I bounced on the way down. I had lot of time to think because I don't want to risk sleeping and being unconcious since after all I still hit back and I'm still worried about my spine. I got that from Grey's Anatony, they dont allow people to sleep whenever they had a bad fall, granted that those people usually hit their head but still, can't risk it. We don't have a Mcdreamy. Mostly I thought about how in the world I fell down the stairs. I know my slippers are the culprit, plus my sleepy state, plus why did I turn back to Rozza then change my mind and went down. Still, can't figure out how I slipped. My legs are in the same position, that could mean both of my feet slipped at the same time. How could I fell down the stairs at 24? If you are suppose to fell down the stairs, you're suppose to do it when you are still a kid, when you still don't know dangerous it is to injure your spine!!! I thought if this would end my mountain adventures. I don't think so, I slipped a couple of times at Tarak but did not get an ass-kicking like this one. But it would definitely stall any adventures for this year. My knees still feel wobbly. And it would definitely hurt to sleep on the ground. I would have to dissapoint Sid once again. He might think I'm just making this up. The bruises on my butt looks pretty convincing though, but he does not have to see that.

Above all that, I still look and feel good for someone who fell down a flight of stairs, I guess its a good thing I've got some meat on my bones now, they had a cushion. Still, life would be so much better if this did not happen at all. C'mon! I'm asking for a break not broken bones. Hopefully this is the last of all the sucky things.

Defying Gravity

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

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I love this song, I saw it on Glee, it was from the musical Wicked